Forgiving? What is that? This isn't Kindergarten.

Vanessa is trying to sell her car. This is part of our new spend, use, waste less new way of life. Recently she had gotten pulled over and written a ticket for having an expired tag. In order to renew her tags we needed to go to the Clerk of Court. I hate going to government entities or lowel level corporate places because the people that work there, 85% of the time are really afraid, incompetent, shallow, and unhelpful game-players.

That's mean, how can I label all those people like that. That sounds crude but what I'm talking about is the sort of people who don't want to work at their job, don't really want to help you find the answer to your question, and would rather find a road block so you could give up and leave them alone.

Well anyways, one of these people told us that we could not renew the registration which we had come there to pay. Becuase apparently there are 2 toll violations on her vehicle totalling $350. And in order to sell the car it needs to have a updated registration, ,and in order to renew the registration we needed to pay $350 for toll violations we never received because they were mailed to her grandmother's house, where her grandmother probably discarded the citations thinking it was a mistake, because...she doesn't even drive. no car. no license. no drive.

I want to be able to call the Clerk of Court up and say that previous paragraph and have them say...I'm sorry, sometimes with computer systems things can get screwed. here. The citation would have been $25 each if you had received like you were supposed to so you owe $50 does that sound better?

That way they're still doing their jobs, I'm not out a crucial living-wage amount of money and the government gets their allowance. But thats not what is going to happen...

Because she doesn't know any better this woman is going to say "I'm sorry." and then I'll say "Well this sucks," this person will probably reach into the back of their head and pull some saying their parents have been telling them for such a long time: "well life sucks."

I will sigh at humanity. Then give in, because I have to and pay $350 of my hard earned money that I without being self-employed would set me back and cause me to possibly use next month's wages to go to Amscot and get the money to pay it off which will set me back next month, which will cause me to work extra hours, which will cause me to be cautious, which will cause me to speed to work in order to be there on time so I don't get fired...which causes me to get a speeding ticket that does it again.

I think forgiveness is important. And I forgive the person at the counter because if they knew what was really going on they would be more helpful and that's ok, its not their fault.
Today I realized that in order to fulfill my goals of writing in my blog everyday I would have to expand the subject matter to not just "alternative living," because well I think about and spend time researching many ideas and it would be a shame not to use that same time to write in the blog and add to the blog-o-sphere which is a new word I've found. its perfect. I think i've said blog-o-sphere before but in other words.

So from now on Derek, write on, research on, include everything, just keep moving forward.
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